No more Respect!

to keep it short, I found out that Dontay was at a kegger with his new girlfriend while I was giving birth... nice right?!

I had my second visit with Abby today! We went to the park! She is getting soo big. Eliza ran off a million and one times lol so I didn't get to hold Abby much but thats ok because at least I got to see her and that made my very shitty day soo much better!! And it was nice to talk to someone about everything as well! I feel like Shana is like my big sister.

Our first mini visit...

Exactly a week after I signed the adoption papers and me and my little girl went to our serperate homes we had our first "visit". It wasn't much of a visit really, I didn't get to hold her much or play/talk to her but even just seeing her was great! We went and got her newborn pictures done. They took a bunch of just her and they were soooo cute! Then they took some of her in her mommy and daddys hands with my hands underneath. That was interesting lol they had Abby naked and I was sitting underneath her while they held her, not to mention she was grunting lol If she would have pooped it would have been on my head!! Then they took some of me and Shana and Abby to show off our bracelets. Finally they took some of just me and Abby, I was really fighting back tears as I held her in my arms again and took those pictures. I can't wait to see how the pictures came out! We are planning another visit here soon so I can get my "Abby fix" as Shana calls it lol.

Now The Journey Really Begins...

Abigail Kaitlin-Marie was born on Saturday August 7th, 2010 at 7:29pm. She was 6lbs 12oz and 20in long. It was a very easy 8 hour long labor. I signed the adoption papers on Monday. It was very hard getting to that point. I was an emotional wreck all day. Everytime I thought I had made up my mind, I would fall back. I think what made it the hardest was the fact that I spend those 2 days alone with her. For some reason I didn't want the family up there which was a total opposite of what I thought I would feel. I don't regret it at all though. Those 2 days alone with her were AMAZING!! I knew in my heart the whole time that the adoption was what I needed to do but my emotions wanted me to keep her. I followed my heart and signed the papers. She is now home with her mommy and daddy. I have talked to them a few times already and she is doing good. I hope to see her soon!!