So the family got in contact with me! I was so excited! I have been talking to them almost everyday since. They are truely amazing people. They have such a wonderful relationship with the birthmother of their daughter Maya. I have even been talking to Maya's birthmother too which is really great. It is awesome to hear her talk so highly of this family. I also met a girl named Courtney. We talk a lot also. She has really help me become at ease with my decision!
My boyfriend on the other hand isn't having such a good experience with everything. He says he feels shameful about it and that he is a bad father because he can't care for his child. I mean I would love to keep the baby, but I know there is no way that is possible. He just needs to realize that with an open adoption and with them living so close, we are going to be a huge part in it's life! We are doing what is best for this child by giving it a life that we can't give it! I just hope he comes around soon!
Back to the family...haha
I really feel like these are the people I want to adopt my child! I stare at their blog and their video multiple times a day! They are sooo wonderful! I can't wait to get to know them better and meet them in person!
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
The Beginning
Okay! I am new to this whole blogging thing, but I felt that it is important to share my story and get my thoughts out. I also believe after everything is over, blogging will be a good healing thing for me.
I just found out yesterday that I am deffinately pregnant. I have thought that I am for a little while now because of the constant nausia and not being able to eat...
I am pretty sure that adoption is the way to go for us right now. We currently have two other children, Eliza 2, and Jaela 5 months. I honestly do not feel it is possible to care for three children at this point in my life.
I have been looking at families for the past 2 weeks or so. I have looked at endless amounts of profiles but no one has seemed just right.. excpet for one which I found today. I am not going to share their names or information right now as I have not heard anything from them but my fingers are crossed. I need to get to know them a lot better before I make my decision but when I read their blog and watched their adoption video, I fell in love!
Now for my expectations of adoption...
We really want a totally open adoption. I want to be a major part in it's life. I have read a lot of adoption stories and I love reading the ones where the adoptive parents say that the birthparents have become like and extended family. I really like that. I want to two families to come together and share their love for this baby. It isn't that we don't want it, it's that we cannot possibly take care of it right now. I would love to find a family early on so that I can share the joys of pregnancy with the adoptive parents.
I am going to need so much support through all of this. I know I have my other children and my boyfriend standing behind me and that is wonderful! I have found a few people who have put their children up for adoption and I love talking to them. They have helped me realize that I am making the best decision. They have also helped me realize that this is going to be the hardest thing that I will ever have to do, but it is for the best!
That is about it for now, I plan on keeping this updated throughout the pregnancy and adoption process!
I just found out yesterday that I am deffinately pregnant. I have thought that I am for a little while now because of the constant nausia and not being able to eat...
I am pretty sure that adoption is the way to go for us right now. We currently have two other children, Eliza 2, and Jaela 5 months. I honestly do not feel it is possible to care for three children at this point in my life.
I have been looking at families for the past 2 weeks or so. I have looked at endless amounts of profiles but no one has seemed just right.. excpet for one which I found today. I am not going to share their names or information right now as I have not heard anything from them but my fingers are crossed. I need to get to know them a lot better before I make my decision but when I read their blog and watched their adoption video, I fell in love!
Now for my expectations of adoption...
We really want a totally open adoption. I want to be a major part in it's life. I have read a lot of adoption stories and I love reading the ones where the adoptive parents say that the birthparents have become like and extended family. I really like that. I want to two families to come together and share their love for this baby. It isn't that we don't want it, it's that we cannot possibly take care of it right now. I would love to find a family early on so that I can share the joys of pregnancy with the adoptive parents.
I am going to need so much support through all of this. I know I have my other children and my boyfriend standing behind me and that is wonderful! I have found a few people who have put their children up for adoption and I love talking to them. They have helped me realize that I am making the best decision. They have also helped me realize that this is going to be the hardest thing that I will ever have to do, but it is for the best!
That is about it for now, I plan on keeping this updated throughout the pregnancy and adoption process!
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