bugh...

Those plans might need to be put on hold... but I don't want them to be!!!! I told Dontay today that the family wants to meet us and that we could do it this weekend or the weekend of the 7th. He said IDK Kaitlin we will have to talk about it. I hate this, I really really hate this!!!! When I first got pregnant adoption was imediately in my mind. I let him know this and he assured me that he would be behind me 100% of the way no matter what I chose to do. Now that adoption is becoming a reality in his eyes and he knows I am set on not keeping this baby.. he's backing away. I don't want to do this by myself I want him there next to me supporting me, like he said he would. I may need to move forward with everything by myself, I am getting to the point where I NEED to tell my mom because I know she will stand next to me and I need that right now! He is making me feel horrible about my decision and I know my mom will raise me up. Maybe I will tell her soon, I am just so scared even though I have no reason to be. I guess if he won't go with me to meet the family, my mom will!! ♥