Time flies!

Wow, it has been forever since I've blogged! I'll try to catch you up! Abby turned 1 on August 7th. It was defnitely a hard day for me. I kept myself busy by doing fun things with my daughters, and reminding myself why I made the decision for Abby to live her life with someone else. I do not regret my decision but there are those time when I wonder what it would be like if she were here, if I had all three of my girls together all of the time. I got a tattoo for Abby the day before her 1st birthday!

I feel a little distant from them right now. It is good to give them their space and me get mine so my heart can heal but at the same time I would love to see her and watch her grow and watch her build a relationship with her sisters. I was supposed to see her on her Birthday but that fell through. She was supposed to come to Jaela's birthday but they decided not to come so it wouldn't be akward(which I understand) I havn't seen her yet. I still have her birthday present sitting in my room waiting for her to open it and it breaks my heart everytime I see that bag. Maybe I will get in contact with them and build our relationship back up to where it was.

As for what is going on with me lately, I have been extremely busy! I enrolled in Medical Assisting school in July. I will be finished with school in February. Because I get done so soon I have to go to school monday through friday which is hard on me and the girls but in the end I know I am bettering our lives.